2015 & 2016 were some crazy years for me? It was the most emotional years for me. I was filled with joy, sadness and gratitude.Earlier this year, I mentioned in my previous blog about sharing my health issues with you guys. But I’m not planning on talking just a dry topic here. I decided to make it to be A Walk Down Memory Lane.
Early year of 2015 I was diagnosed with an illness called NES. This happened after I had my back surgery two years ago. It’s some kind of a disorder that is going to be with me for a long time. It’s an uncommon disease but I was actually glad they have do a name for it. In layman terms, I get dissociated seizure whenever there’s an attack. I was emotionally drained when I heard it for the first time and that’s where I hit my rock bottom. It was the worst time of my life. I felt so disconnected with inner self and people around me. I was depressed and there were those days I felt so alone fighting this battle. It’s the most challenging thing that happens to my life by far.
I was thankful that I’ve my family to pick me up and they’ve been there ever since. Their support and motivation keeps this blog alive. I feel so blessed and lucky to be given the opportunity to do what I love despite my health problem.
Blogging quickly becomes a place where I could keep my mind off health issue and thinking what makes me happy. I came to the realization that beauty from inside out wasn’t enough. I need beauty from outside in as well. Makeup myself pretty from outside in changes my perspective that it’s okay to feel sad and down, when I see myself pretty it gave me the motivation to keep on paddling. I was grateful to work in collaboration with many beauty brands throughout my blogging years. It was an amazing experience that I would never forget.
My hubby has been my rock, my lover and my soul mate. He has always been there for me. With his full-time job, he would take his time off to bring me for doctor’s appointments and rush me ER. Last year alone, I broke record high of going to the ER eight times. I get shiver now whenever I see a hospital. It was a traumatizing experience. Above all, I admit that I’m truly blessed to have someone I can count on to.
My children have been my inspiration all through this difficult times. I was the happiest mommy to receive so much of unconditional love and warmth from them. It’s hard to become a sick parent with healthy children. I’m grateful for their understanding. I could feel the joy of being a mom to my beautiful children. They’re part of the reason that keeps me going. I want to be there for them as much as I could. My children are truly a blessing for me.
Despite my illness, we managed to go for several trips last year. It was the best family vacation ever. It was tiring but yet rewarding. I couldn’t have ask for more.
I have the opportunity to meet so many amazing friends on my blog and connecting with you guys are the best thing ever that had happened to me. It was amazing to read and hear your stories as well. You guys have been an awesome bunch. I hope to continue to write good contents that I’m passionate about. Blogging definitely makes me happy. I want to thank you guys for your encouragements.
In 2016 we started to have an open house for church members. We’ve a small bible study group where we learn the word of God. It’s so fun to connect and be surrounded by fellow friends who share the same believe and faith. You would be amazed that there are so many good and understanding people out there. Find your local community and get involved either by giving or seeking help.
So, 2016 has been a year that I proof my strength and I guess I made it this far. This new year’s goal I have for myself is to inspire. I hope this post will inspire you or if you have friends who is sick today, just remember no matter how small or low life throws at you, always keep your head high and just move forward. It’s not the easiest thing to do but I know you could do it like I did. Everyday is a new day for me. Whenever I’ve my good days, I just embrace it and hoping for a tomorrow to be as good as today.
With all the challenges I faced throughout those years, I managed to control my fear, bitterness, pain and new changes. These experiences taught me to be strong and I believe with this 2017, I see hope and destiny awaits!
Thank you for taking the time to stop by. I hope you’d enjoyed reading this post. Have a great week ahead!